I went to see a holistic therapist at the beginning of the month. I felt unhappy in certain aspects of my life and needed help with finding the right solutions. I wanted to set good intentions going into 2025.

Something that she encouraged me to do was start journaling. One problem- I can’t fucking stand using a pen and paper for an extended period of time. My hand cramps up, my wrist starts to ache. Not to mention I write at nearly a 90 degree angle and hold my pen wrong. I actually saw a TikTok not long ago that was talking about the traits and tendencies of neurodivergent people; both of those were on the list. I’m totally convinced that I have undiagnosed ADHD. And before you go giving me shit, no, I don’t take medical advice from TikTok.

Anyways, I digress. I’ve tried to journal like a million times. I’ve purchased numerous of those prompted books to try and get myself going (I always end up filling out one page before shoving it to the back of my shelf and never looking at it again). I am much more of an efficient typer, hence my decision to create this blog.

While I may be an efficient typer, I’m not very efficient at getting things done in a timely manner. I have been wanting to create some sort of online outlet for myself since before Christmas, I just kept making up excuses (ie. “I don’t have the time right now”, “I don’t know where to start”, blah, blah, blah). Well, as I am sure we are all already aware, excuses and procrastination get you nowhere and do nothing but enable you to be a lazy piece of shit. I learned that lesson yet again today, as a 30 second TikTok search showed me exactly what platform to use to start this blog (shout out @malenapermentier). It took me all of ten minutes to create this site, and now I’m kicking myself for not starting sooner. Oh well, better late than never, I guess.

I have zero expectations for this. My intention is to create a space for myself, a sort of online digital diary. I want to post regularly in order to hold myself accountable, so I have a place to reflect as I enter this next stage of my life. I don’t care who reads it, or if anyone even reads it at all. If people do happen to stumble across it, I hope it reaches an audience that can relate to my stories and/or experiences and learn from them.

So… I guess we’re blogging now?

– k.